how I feel not you

I know everyone is allways thinking why was i put on this earth or what the true meaning of our existence well im here to let you know your not alone sadly im the same way pathetic lazy im hell id ont even go to school anymore i was kicked out because i never went  i swear it feel like i get dragged farther and farther down every day and that nothing can fix it like there a HUGE void that can and never be filled you know what i mean? i deal with it threw music music i beleive is the cure for everything but not that rap crap ppl think is music because its not and if u think it is u need to be slapped i dont even know why im writting this bolgg i guess i figured id feel better and it would help me deal i guess writting random stuff out somewhere .-. :c